i don't do goodbyes. i just don't. i think one thing that really points to there being more besides this life here and now, is how temporary things in this world are, and how eternal we as humans are built. we're not made to say goodbye. it's not a natural thing. we crave stability and permanence and security and routine (elizabeth keeps throwing them out and they're right on the money, so i'm putting them down). we also crave adventure and change at times, but i think these are more fleeting pursuits and after chasing them for awhile, we revert back to the longing for stability. in a perfect world, there would be no goodbyes. but i hate to break it to you, this is not a perfect world. and goodbyes come with the territory -that doesn't mean i like them though. every bone in my body screams at me that this is not fair! this is not the way it's supposed to be. and it's true, it's not. i don't do goodbyes.

(i don't think this thought process is finished, but i'm done for now).